Sabar

Orang kata nak dapat kan sesuatu kena sabar. Sekarang tengah praktikkan sabar tu.

Tapi klupun kita sabar, Tuhan kata apa yang kita nak bukan untuk kita, bukan yang kita perlukan.. tak dapat jugak kat kita. Yang ni sedih :(

Tapi segalanya bersifat sementara dalam dunia ni. Jadi bersederhanalah.. Tapi saya akan tetap sabar sampai Tuhan memberi kata putus untuk doa-doa saya.

Nama aku ke?

Tadi aku tgh mamam. Mamam mee hoon je pun, malas nk kuar kan.

Pehtu boss aku duduk sebelah balik dari lunch. Pehtu boss lagi besar datang cakap pasai ML. So aku makan je la.. Hahahaha.. Naseb arr derang nampak aku makan.

Pehtu dia mcm sebut nama aku. Pehtu aku pun kompiyus.. Derang sebut nama aku ke? Hahahaha... Perasan...

Mandarin

Hari ni boss duduk sebelah ai. Ai tak kisah pun. Tapi bila dia berleter pasal MasterList DiGi dalam bahasa mandarin.. Konfirm aku tak paham. Haih!

Stupid

Am stupid

Relationship part two

You know, now I got a special boyfriend who I mentioned in this blog by the name of "hensem".

Why I like him?

1. Because he is a good man.
2. Using low tone when speak. Soft spoken personlaa.. heheh
3. No drama.
4. Always giving me an explanation when I want the explanation.
5. And I think he's an honest man. (based on instinct)
6. Not a smoker.
7. And absolutely he is single, not a married person and don't have gf. (I mean here special gf becoz he always mentioned me as the special) *Is it really?
8. When am feeling insecure bout the relationship and always asked him something stupid becoz of the jealousy, he will explain everything till I can smile again. (This is due to he got a lot of girl fren.. someone he call her as mama laa.. mak laa.. err.. and a lot of girl fren la... terdiri juga dari makcik2 bukan anak dara je)
9. Can accept me of who I am.
10. Got a bit humor.

Oklah2.. enough of why I like him.

But.. sometimes when we lepaking with his frens.. I need not to reveal of my actual age and status. Make me think twice or thrice or double thrice why? Why I need to hide of who am really are? Oh nasib baik I nampak muda.. and when his fren ask me for the age.. he just said that I am younger than them. The truth is I am 36 and he is 31 and are they believe I am younger than them? Still confuse..

Yes we don't plan to get married. Errmm.. ekceli it is more to.. he does not want to marry me and deep inside I understand why. And deep inside I got a little disappointment but I need to accept it. Sebab aku sedar diri babe! 

Oh and he still looking for his future wife.. hurrmm. Thats why he got a lot of girl fren kot? He said he like to be fren with girl/woman because they are not speak in not good language or bad language like maki hamun or cakap kotorlaa... I can accept the reason but maybe you will think am stupid.. yes sometimes i feel stupid but I need happy. And am always said to him, if he dating someone else please inform me coz I will be gone forever from his life. Dont dare to find me againlah coz during the time I need happy as well and the happy wont come from him anymore kan?

And for the time being I am his priority kot? and will not be in future when he found someone else better than me... oh.. this made me sad. :(

Why I do a lot to make him happy? The answer is.. am happy when he is happy.. cuma sometimes when feeling insecure .. that dont make me happy..

Kan?

Nak masuk semester baru. 4 subjek as usual.
Baki tinggal lagi 4 subjek. Weyh.. Nak grad dah? Caye tak?

Tapi next sem tak sure nak amik 4 sekali or dua-dua..
Ekceli more to.. nak grad dengan hensem ke nak grad sendiri?
Hehehe..

But deep inside.. Tak sabar nak grad. Pehtu sambung master.
Nak sambung master sendiri ke .. nak sambung dengan hensem?
Ekekeke.. mestila dengan hensem.. Kan hensem?

Happy

Sometimes i wonder why i cannot happy like others . :(